So near. Yet so far.
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Monday, August 28, 2006
sigh~...
today is the 4th day of sickness... sigh~...
only thing in my mind... i super miss her... i wanna be with her... haiis...
at sch, at outside... tried to be happy happy... don wish pple to noe tat... i'm not feeling so well and happy... sigh~... but when came back home... everyting in me changed... hmmm...
backaches... super pain... zzzz... haiis... so bored... i so miss her... where's her... sigh~... going offline le... bubbyes... sigh~...
she noes... but she's not doing anything... friends asked me whether she noes abt it... tat i like her alot... i said yeahs... she noes... and friends asked again, then?... then i reply... wad then?... hai bu shi liddat lorhs... sigh~... things to me is really so suay... i'm being condemned in my life... haiis... just feels tat... i suxs alot... can't do anything rite... i'm just a poor and stupid boy... haiis... i really miss her alot... alot alot alot... hmmm... where's u... look for me someday... and tell me wad are u tinking... ok?... sigh~... i miss u... hmmm... i love u too...
*I miss u alot. Where's u.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 6:33:00 PM
6:33:00 PM@
Saturday, August 26, 2006
sigh~...
today is the 2nd day of sickness...
hmmm...
going chushi... going offline preparing... bubbyes!!...
I miss u so much. Sigh~.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 3:33:00 PM
3:33:00 PM@
Friday, August 25, 2006
sigh~...
long since i last updated...
hmmm...
i'm sick le... very very sick... sickness = love...
haiis... had no one to say out my feelings to... only can kept it inside myself... i feel so lost... i donnoe where's the way infront of me anymore... i'm so scare... suddenly feeling so scare... sigh~...
these few days... was so so so miss her... wanted to tell her all abt it... but i don dare... i can't... haiis... tis morning... while walking to sch... saw something again... sigh~... feelings' weird... i miss her... i wished to chat with her for long... just two person... sent her to and back home... but... all these... has been replaced by another person... a person, who is far better than me...
hmmm...
retributions... are true... it indeed will happen to a person who is very bad before... i didn't dare to tink abt anything anymore... life is just so meaningless... walk road also no need see whether got car anot le... sigh~... i just feel so lost and helpless...
sigh~...
everynite... tried control... but with those peer pressure always given by families... and tinking of her... tear shed down... tinking back... everyting tat i do... is always alone... even tearing... haiis...
remember during tat day of competition... after knowing our results... wasn't feeling so gd... so sat down, lying onto the lamppole by the road side... jy infront of me... we cried... was feeling so down... big ones went over to jy... hug him... jy cried out loud... me... behind... was tearing alone... then she msg me... ask me the results... and i was tinking... where's her... i miss her so much... i wan her to be by me rite now... but i knew it can't came true... and i kept on tearing... until big one's one gf came over and comforted me... but still can't cry out... while going back... tear again on the lorry... haiis... haiis...
i just miss her so much... i'm suffering in a sickness... sigh~... tonite... may not look so gd for me again... haiis... gtg... bubbyes... haiis...
I'm always alone. I miss u so much.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:38:00 PM
7:38:00 PM@
Sunday, August 20, 2006
sigh~...
lols... hmm.. today... whole day was at home, didn't use computer in the afternoon coz stupid bro need to revise his work... lols... so at 4+pm when cycling and cycle to blcc and find them... haas...
siians...
just few days nv go trainin and alot of things has changed again~~... lols... jian yi, nic, tiao zhuang!?... lols... me, nigel, tiao trad!?... lols... wth... haas... donnoe lars... nxt sat, sun then can continue my LD life... hahas... after few weeks... my LD life end again... END-YEAR EXAM IS COMING!!~... lols... so scared sehs... hahas... sians sians...
hmmm...
siians... siians... no pple pei me chat de... going offline soon... I MISS HER SOOO MUCH!!!... ARGHSS~!!!!!!...
siians.. sigh~...
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 9:22:00 PM
9:22:00 PM@
Saturday, August 19, 2006
sigh~...
hmmm so siians... didn't help wlcs chushi... big ones ban... LOLs...
ehh... donnoe why got pple jio me go down sch nearby de sintua see see.. lols... donnoe wanna go anot... later go liao tio... bu shi die... hahahs... see first lorhs... maybe nv bahs... so tired... haas...
arrmmm...
tml sunday... have trainin... but cannot attend too... zzzz... without chushi and trainins.. wahhs... I WILL DIE!... hahass.. coz at home so siians... 24hr online... then end of mnth... bill shoot dao high high... hahas... lols... so better go out walk walk bahs...
ehh...
just now she was online... chat with her... for only... 4 msgs?... lols... sigh~... nth to say... it's not totally... but somethings... i just don dare to tell her... haiis... hmmm.. lols..
anyway... gtg liaos... bubbyes!!!.. hahas... xD...
*Changed skin... Nice?... haas...
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:07:00 PM
7:07:00 PM@
Friday, August 18, 2006
sigh~...
today was having wushu at sch in afternoon... we gathered outside the chi. dance room... saw her somewhere near the door... purposely stood there... just wan to take a look at her... but... she keep shifting in, into the room... -.=... sigh~...
during the practice... wasn't so... ermm... happy... sigh~... whole day was missin her... keep on findin... where her, where her... hmmm... after practice stayed late at sch... ownself sat at table... friends came... asked "hey, why so siians... kanna ditched izzit?.."... replied "yeah lo... siians... hao xiang send someone home... but can't..."... then i just walked away...
after tat... went to basketball court... and... sigh~... shan't elborate more... hmmm... just tat... saw someting repeatly... i'm just so no fate...
haiis... the worse thing could only be...
当你喜欢的人在你面前，可是你只能对她笑，慢慢的看着她和别人走掉...
hmm... tat's the worse...
I'm just can't have the mood to be happy. sigh~.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:16:00 PM
7:16:00 PM@
Thursday, August 17, 2006
sigh~...
was vaccuming the hse... once again... it's me... haiis... i'm just so unlucky... it's not my job... and always me who got to do it... always me who got the scoldings...
sigh~... afternn a scolding... nite a scolding again... they just doesn't know how tired i am... all they want me to do is perfect... everything wan me to do it in time... and everytime... i couldn't have my own say... once said anything... it's counted as talkback to them... haiis... they just don understand... totally... and all these just will only happen to me... not him... haiis... i'm wondering... could i pass this yr... i'm just so tired...
nite time coming soon in few hrs... sigh~... another round of scolding cum nagging is soon going to start... and i'm already so tired... they want me to be gd... to obey them... i did it... and i endured it... but now... wad else do they wan?... i have already did things in their ways they wanted... sigh~... i'm so so so so tired... how i wish... they could noe it...
i'm only sec3 this yr... with these things... haiis... how i'm i going to continue.... -.=... so tired... tired... haiis...
how i wish... they could understand... -.=...
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 5:46:00 PM
5:46:00 PM@
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
sigh~...
was chatting with moi jiejie... lols... and realised something...
*Can Love Easily Be Forgotten? ==>> Definite Answer:: NO FOREVER.
LOls... it's a no forever... Mouth say Forget... But Heart still Remember... hahas... so... it's very different to answer tat question... hmmm...
hmmm... love just make pple sweet and bitter... LOL.. haas... although it's gd to love someone... and to be loved by someone... but in the end... there will also always be a end to it... unless... love dao get married lo... hahas... lols...
today nv go sch... sick neh... stomachache... lols... missed alot of things... maths test and photo-taking... hmmm... this yr's yearbook, i will be gone from the class photo section... LOL... coz i nv go sch!!!... hahas... sad sehs... hmmm... nvm lars... i inside the pic. anot also doesn't matters alot... lols...
*so many pple to ask to cheer up.
1)JIEJIE
2)SICHARBOR
3)ME, MYSELF
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 5:27:00 PM
5:27:00 PM@
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
sigh~...
fk lars... the stupid cd see till half way hang... then cannot see liaos... zzzz... -.=.. sot lehhs!!... zzzz...
hmmm... tml got test... maths test... sigH~... siians nahs... so bored... so bored... hmmm... haas... ok lars... gtg liaos... bubbyes!!...
*jie nv online, how tell me seh... hahas... chu shi and trainin whole day rite?... LOL... see lars... tml tell me or sms me... =D...
*si.char.bor.`CHEERUP.lar
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 9:01:00 PM
9:01:00 PM@
Monday, August 14, 2006
sigh~...
Hmm... long since i update... coz past few days alot of things to do...
12/08/2006 Saturday
hmmm... was having street parade... everything was quite well done... gd job... hahas... LOL...
13/08/2006 Sunday
hmmm... was having LD whole day long... morning chushi... afternoon rest then trainin... lols... learn lion and dragon... quite fun nahs... haas
Today... OMG~... whole day damn boredd... haas... hmmm... tml sch again liaos... needa wake up early again...
12/08/2006 mid-nite, jie cried again... LOLs... jie ar~... today no crying hors... hahas... if u see this nahs... don cry don cry... =D... hmmm... hees...
ANTI-cryIN. lols. bored~.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:35:00 PM
7:35:00 PM@
Friday, August 11, 2006
sigh~...
someting was very wrong today... i'm so so so blur~... wad happened to me...
he was painting back their drums... suddenly she came... and asked tat she also wanna paint too... so he gave her the brush... she was scare tat she might messed up the paints... she tok to him... he found out tat her voice was somehow weird... looks like she's sick... and she went off to buy things...
after awhile she came back... went into the room and eat... then her friend shouted to her to remember to eat her medicine... he was shocked tat she's sick... he wanted to ask to to take care... but... he's scare... and didn't went up...
she ate finished her meal... and went out to the corridor and eat her medicine... suddenly... the HIM came... he actually wanted to go up and tok to her... but after see tat the HIM was just beside her... he came back... and went to a corner... she noticed tat he's something wrong and looked at him(this may not be true).
after painting all the drums... he arrange the drums back onto the drum stand... she then came forward and asked him to teach her how to beat... at tat moment... he was totally blur... doesn't noe wad to do... and all the way... he was... weird~... after awhile... she went off... he was feeling abit weird... just no mood...
after tat... he went to had his training... she came... sat at the back... he already doesn't have the mood to carry on anymore... but he still have to lead the whole group... there was a time... went all of them from the front must turn to the back... and he turned... he looked at her... she smiled to him... at tat time... he doesn't noe whether to smile back or not... he's confused...
after the trainin... he pushed back his drum back into the room... on the way... outside the corridor... he saw her and the HIM was outside... talkin to each other... walkin towards him... she saw him... and smile... he doesn't even haf the mood and pushed the drum into the room...
after tat... all the drums outside was ready to be kept into the room... his coach asked him to ask few more pple to help him... but he refused... so he ownself carried the drums in... as he walked towards the door... she came out... with her bag... saying bubbye to him... he waved to her... and she walked down to the canteen... back home... suddenly... she turned back... and put down her bag... runnin towards him and told him tat she wanna help... so he called her to push those drums into the room... all was so weird... she then tok to him again... for a few minutes...
and she left... after the practice... he was tinkin... izzit because tat she notice him was not so happy when he saw her with the HIM... and approach him to help...
he(the stupid person who is waiting for her)
HIM(the sec. 4 guy which is super close with her)
she, her(the gal tat is being waited)
hmmm.. maybe sometimes... fate will be playing each other's life... it's so unfair... sigh~...
*NQY*. miss u. harts u.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 7:43:00 PM
7:43:00 PM@
Thursday, August 10, 2006
sigh~...
today holiday... LOl... no need go sch...
hmmm... so bored sehs... no where to go... just later on maybe going trainin... hmm.. oni maybe hors... nv confirm go... -.=... sians ar sians...
tml... 1day sch then public holidays, monday holiday again... hahas... sad... tml sch cannot take mc... need to paint drum, collect street parade t-shirt and hand in homeworks... zzzz...
hmmm... gonna ask for permission rite now!... zzzz... -.=... bubbyes!!~...
Sat. 12 Aug. Outside BLSS. Street Parade.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 5:38:00 PM
5:38:00 PM@
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
sigh~...
yesterday went for wlcs de chu shi at white hse... lols... was weird yesterday... luckily gx came and talked to me... hahas... wad a nice person...
hmm... today is NDP.. lols... later got watch e parade... hahahas... tml no sch... weess!!!... ahahas... but at home also quite siian de lehs... oni till nite got trainin... hmmm...
*yawns*... tired tired... lols... siians lehs... this sat got street parade... outside blss... hope nth goes wrong lorhs.. haas.. paint drum at friday... and it's done.. hmm...
okoks... 6pm is near... wanna go watch tv liaos... bubbyes!!!...
*jiejie. cheer up orh. (=.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 5:31:00 PM
5:31:00 PM@
Monday, August 07, 2006
sigh~...
hmmm... suddenly, was at the mood of blogging... saying out all tat i have tinked these few days...
hmmm... during these few days... seems tat i have lost alot of things... ALOT i mean... lols... sigh~...
today... after sch... stay at canteen doing nth... then realise... alot of couples were sitting ard me... then... she was somewhere far from me... was ownself tinkin... hmmm... when would i have the same day as my friends had rite now... lols...
hmmm... long time since i laugh, i smile and i play crazily... when was it?... lols... haiis... i donnoe lars... donnoe lars!!!!.... sigh~...
problems coming all over me.... ALL... i very fan ar!!!... can all problems just leave me alone!!.... argghhhs.... haiis.... haiis....
if i'm telling u tat while i'm writing all these... and i'm not feeling anyting... it's all lies... haiis...
Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le. Wo Hao Lei Le.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 6:38:00 PM
6:38:00 PM@
Sunday, August 06, 2006
sigh~...
lols... today went to pray grandma at afternoon, at clementi... so didn't attend the training... while bus went pass blcc... saw them training dragon in the bball court...
hmmm... tml sch day again... *yawns*... sians sehs... lols...
yesterday stay back at sch paint drums... lols... all of us paint until almost whole shirt got paint... kept on playing with paints... stupid... haas... then after few hrs... all drums painted total white and oni 4 got painted with luminous green and orange(red)... coz not enough paints/sprays... hmm... very nice sehs... everyting for that street parade is nice... but oni thing bad tat is... GOING TO HAVE MAKE-UP AGAIN!!!... wahhss... stupid stupid lars... eeee...
going off soon!!... bubbyes!!...
*xiaoAN jie. UR TAKA. COM. DATE PUT WRONG IZZIT?. -.=. LOLs.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 8:20:00 PM
8:20:00 PM@
Friday, August 04, 2006
sigh~...
today whole day was so so so moody... i can't smile or laugh... sigh~... wad happened to me... only ting tat i knew tat... i have a feeling of crying... eyes are watery... LOL... =X... siians...
maybe ish because afternoon bahs... haiis... kan dao bu gai kan de dong xi... haiis... and it's many times... plus drumming session also got prob... haiis... haiis... hao siians ars...
sigh~... tml will be going for the rehersal... have to wake up damn early... haiis... will be seeing her tml again... how should i face it nehs?... hmmm... hmmm... hao, hao, hao siians... lols...
sigh~... lousy me... =(.
*NQY*.ge wo ni de ai hao mahs?.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 8:45:00 PM
8:45:00 PM@
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
sigh~...
Can i go coach's hse later on?... zzzz...
hmmm... today was a boriing day... at sch nth to do... come home also nth to do... after sch... all ps each other with the stead... hahas... left me and one of my friend in the canteen... hahas... so so so bored... -.=... sigh~...
tml will be having computer's exam again... have failed one subject already... haiis... wan dan liaos... hais hais... hmmm.... siians...
no mood sehs whole day... so siians siians... hmmm... hmmm... sigh~...
*NQY*.i'm so confused.
he didn't giveup;
& he's still loving *NQY* at 6:33:00 PM
6:33:00 PM@
dye hair blue/purple
November 2005